Today I had a conversation with a friend, that got me thinking. She is responsible for my "aha moment" today, so to her I say "Thank you, I needed it." As I am in a period of transition (more than I would like to be at times), it's just a reminder of how hard it is to be there. One of my favorite sayings is "if you want to make God, the universe, or whatever you refer to "it" as, laugh, tell him your plans."
One thing I have learned in my short time on this planet, is that I AM NOT IN CONTROL (and for a self-professed control freak, that's a hard pill to swallow). You mean after all the plans I have made in my life, and all the successes I have had, I am not in control? You have got to be kidding me!
No matter how hard I fight, that truth remains... I am not in control. I can only control how I prepare for and react to the occurrences in my life, the choices I make, and even the type of person I want to be, but the rest is out of my hands.
I am fortunate, I have my faith. Now, I will not sit here and lie to the world, and act like I never worry or stress out. I am only human, however, when push comes to shove (and I finally throw up my hands), from my perspective and my belief system, I can trust that God has my best interest at heart. My experience has taught me that while in man's eyes I should not be where I am, God has different plans. I have faced much uncertainty in my life, and I am wise enough to know that I will continue to, but I know that one thing has and will continue to remain constant, God is with me every step of the way.
So no, I don't know what my future holds, I don't even know if I will wake up tomorrow, or for that fact, make it to the end of the day. But either way, life will go on. I guess I say all this to leave you with this thought, and what I hope will encourage many of you (including myself).
Uncertainty is a beast, and we spend most of my life there. However, we're not completely helpless at these times in our lives. No matter where we are in life, we are always in a state of transition. So, we must have faith, hope for the best, prepare for the worst, and realize there's only so much that we can control.
Friday, April 24, 2009
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~Marianne WilliamsonI love this quotation. It encompasses everything that I believe, and yet when it comes to personalizing it, I find it soooo hard to do. Why is it that I am so readily able to assist others with letting their light shine, but I struggle to even recognize that I have a light to offer? I definitely question "who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?" and I often wonder "what is my purpose for being on this planet?" There is nothing that makes me so significant that I "deserve" to be here. I have not cured cancer, saved the dolphins, or created a work of art that touches the very soul of any human being. I just am. But then I think, I have been on this earth for almost 27 years, surely my work is not finished, because as Richard Bach said "Here's the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished. If you're alive, it isn't." So what to do?
Work on learning my purpose, recognizing my light, and doing everything I can to let it shine so bright, people will need to wear shades ;). And to all lights that shine in my life, continue to recognize your power, embrace, and use your gifts, and share your love because we all know you're AWESOME!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I have finally decided to take the plunge and become a blogger (the world must be coming to an end)! While I decided to begin this blog to share what I will call "my whispers," I really do not know what this space will become. I think that I hope this will be my place of constant reminders. You see, I have a tendency to forget some times; forget what is important, what life is about and how to live it. I also want those who read this blog, whether I know you or not, to know that whatever you're going through in life, you're not alone, and neither am I. So hopefully we can share in "listening to the whispers" and living inspired.